QUEEN PRIDE: The Heart of Darkness

• The right to exist has nothing to do with Pride, although often misconstrued! 
• The right to exist has to do with Absolute Reality and Pride only has to do with our Story
• We innocently look for Pride out of confusion, but then Pride eventually chases us

Queen Pride: The Heart of Darkness

What or Who rules your kingdom: Pride or You? The Choice is up to you, but be aware first that Pride is not alive and has no conscience, just like Frankenstein.

Every person has pride.

We are always coping with who we are internally because of Confusion, we are not able to know our Selves clearly. So we began to struggle with the “I” (our Story) as the result of the illusion of separation. And Pride was born out of this confusion. Pride is the judge, it is the Opinion Master. It makes the judgements. It tells you who you are, what to do, what to think, and where you stand in your Story. The Queen keeps the Story court in order. Pride is neither 'good' nor 'bad'. There is no one to blame, it is just us handing over the responsibility to the thinking mind to keep us happy and it is doing as it's told according to its capabilities, this includes the self-defense of our story (which we can easily misconstrue by thinking it is the self-defense of our actual life). That gives you an idea how powerful and amazing the thinking mind is. However because it has no conscience, it will restrict choice and actions. Which is an illusion. We have freedom of choice and freedom to choose. We first need to restrict Pride's movements, and then you conquer. The thinking mind can NOT tell you WHO you are. But it can serve to tell you who you are NOT, which means you have freedom to be YOU. You conquer your Pride, your kingdom is returned -- that is the checkmate! 

Pride is the imbalance of us internally trying to locate the true self (because of separation from the whole) as it inflates (enhances significance) and deflates (undermines significance) throughout our lives. Pride is an illusion of the self. The true self (ego, read the real terminology: Ego terminology and  The Ego, The Soul, and The Illusion) doesn't need Pride as you are connected with all things, connected to the Whole and you do not need to prove your Self. So the true self does not need judgement!

Pride is the most dangerous affliction of all and is what causes all the other afflictions. We are only driven by an answer, and driven by and what the answer is. We think we already know what the answer is. We think we know what the Story is. Pride is the ultimate delusion, it is a sickness. It is what is intoxicating the world. It is the Illusion of knowledge, illusion that we already know the answer. Pride is either inflated or deflated. BOTH ARE STILL PRIDE!

Inflation of the 'I', appearing only your 'I' world exists, leads to downfall (no foundation)

• Inflation of the ‘I’ (enhancing your Story): BLAMES. Dominating. Declares supremacy. The illusion of strength. Above the law, above what is real. I know the answer, I am right you are wrong. I am better than you. I know better than you. I told you so. He/she is to blame. I speak first! My story is better than your story. Pride is what causes impatience. Pride is always in a hurry. Pride is what causes us to be controlled by our emotions. Pride makes us react swiftly mentally, verbally, and emotionally (without thinking). Pride is what makes us deny others. Pride keeps us unsatisfied, wanting to always look for satisfaction, to prove our selves to others, because it’s a ghost that we use to ‘make us satisfied’. 

Deflation of the ' I' is still Pride, the appearance of no internal Choice, stuck, dead-end

• Deflation of the ‘I’ (insignificance of your Story): GUILTY. Dominated. Declares defeat. It’s what makes us subordinate/weak. He/she is better than me. They know the answer. Because they said so. My story has no value, no significance. Pride causes procrastination. It causes low confidence. It causes Shame. 

Prejudice is the enemy of Wisdom. 

So we are on a path (that you can’t see) and the path continues. That means we are continuing to LEARN at all times. Therefore we are not driven by the answer (Pride) but instead driven by the question (Curiosity). The Illusion is afraid of the truth because of Pride and Ignorance. So Fear is denying the Real Self because we think the Illusion is real. Pride is the darkness that grows within us, casting a shadow over our world, the heart of darkness. Pride makes the judgement, and the verdict is your emotional reaction: guilty, shame, anger, offended, jealousy, vanity, greed, superiority, worry, impatience, .... all the afflictions. Fear makes it difficult for people to let go of their Story controlling them. Fear is because of confusion that your story might be right, But how can you fear an illusion since it's just an illusion? That's the danger of Pride, it is like being in jail!

“Only speak when you’re spoken to.”

What does that even mean? "Don’t speak until you are spoken to”? Listen to what you see. It means LISTEN FIRST! The speed of light travels faster than the speed of sound.

The Tortoise and the Hare
The Hare (pride) thinks it knows what the answer is. The Tortoise (humility) takes it's time.

Listen to what though? Patience, because we love getting ahead of ourselves. It means don’t act on an impulse. It means to slow down. It means to wait. This is related to pride wanting to assume, appearing you already have the answer which causes impulse in us to speak first to think an opinion first! Like looking at the rear-view mirror instead of what's in front of you. How do you know the answer before understanding what the question is? 
Pride is is the Ruler of the mental world, the 2-dimensional world. It uses your eyes and ears to only see in 2-dimensional even if everything 'appear's 3D.

When we stop being driven by the answer (the rear-view mirror), all afflictions, habits, behaviors, obsessions, addictions, and procrastination-- mental and its effect expressed in our physical -- become useless. 

Pride is that 'urge' within you that arises in your internal world FIRST to react on all thing. Once you get the hang of it when you lower it's frequency, you will see it as almost a separate entity within you that you need to 'calm down'. It is like a parent (the real you) holding a child's hand (pride). Pride (the child) will act recklessly without the parent's guidance. So what you want to do is not treat the child as an enemy but you just want to 'parent' it, 'let's go my way'. The 'urges' does the following within you:

Who wants to speak first? Pride. Who doesn't want to listen? Pride. Who doesn't want to know? Pride. Who resists? Pride. Who panics? Pride. Who does the poopooing? Pride. Who keeps questioning? Pride. Who answers those questions? Pride. Who doesn't want to ask the real questions? Pride. Who does the blaming? Pride. Who does the self-doubting? Pride. Who does the justifying? Pride. Who talks back? Pride. Who denies the truth? Pride. Who denies the Self? Pride.

Once you get the hang of these urges, you have now pinpointed the pride 'entity' and can 'control' the urges as the more percentage of you takes the wheel. So in the beginning, Pride has a percentage of its control over you. Once you get the hang of controlling the urges by not reacting to it (refer to parent-child relationship), the more percentage of the real you will take control. Remember that we are accustomed to Pride being WHO I am, so we must be vigilant when it wants to raise its head.

It’s the question that drives us. Not the answer. That is where pride ENDS. 

Where Pride ends, real strength begins. Where Pride ends, Peace begins. Where Pride ends, Gratitude begins. Where Pride ends, Listening begins. Where Pride ends, Wisdom begins. When we surrender Pride we return to our Selves and with all things. We dance in its glory. We can dance because we are no longer driven by the answer. We are only driven by wonder and wonder is what give us JOY! It’s what gives us POETRY! When we SURRENDER Pride we cease the tragedy of separation. This is the real definition of INNOCENCE.

Pride is difficult to admit but once you can admit it you then have peace with it and then it can be conquered with joy :)